“We’ve lost the art.”

I’m not sure why this blog is here. I can only wonder what possessed me to think that my day-to-day activities, thoughts, and particularly good or bad moments were of such importance that they had to be immediately posted on the internet for all to see and sympathetically comment on. It’s not that I don’t think I’m important to an extent, because I believe I am important. Just, not this much.

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A Glimpse of Liberation?

It’s still lingering, trailing. Like a girl walking by who had bathed herself in perfume minutes before. The night air was cold. I would have shivered, but luckily, I didn’t have to. A gray, somewhat itchy cardigan. The wind rushed around me, rushed at me. It carried a smell. The odor of the moist dirt, the tall yellow grass, the oncoming night. To my right: The color of the sky as the sun set, a lovely gradient of blue and gray and gold and pink. I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face, but luckily, I didn’t have to. Looking left: a city alive. Lights flickering and simmering against the dark sky. Purple clouds, puffing along. The cold breeze kindly reminded me of its presence, so I ripped out the tie holding back my rebellious hair. With their inhibitions slipped off, the words could flow freely. We didn’t care. “I’m So Hood” blasting from the speakers as we sang along. I didn’t care. But luckily, I didn’t have to.

Freedom.

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“My hair gives me the ability to defy gravity”

Li Un is feeling…Relaxed

And is listening to… Must Have Done Something Right by Relient K

Clearly, I don’t usually post in my blog unless some otherworldly driving force somehow compels me to. In this case, said force would be Vince’s blog. Thanks a lot, Vince’s blog you rotten orange you.

So, I read his latest entry and attempted to leave this lovely comment consisting of a recipe for an awesome Jesus essay and how I can’t relate to over half the things he talks about, but upon clicking the ’submit’ button I was confronted with a “LOL THE ANTI-SPAM CODE IS WRONG” type message. Laughing at my utter inability to read numbers correctly, I clicked back on my browser only to be shown a blank comment box. Blank. As in, lacking the words of my beautiful comment. Once again, many thanks Vince. Thanks for wasting over 2 minutes of my life. I really appreciate it. No really, I do.

For some reason, that incident made me want to post in my blog so, for lack of anything better to do, here I am doing just that.

Oh, and speaking of anti-spam codes and how I don’t have one, my blog is undergoing some serious spam barrages. I would try and fix it, but I lack the required know how so I’m going to wait around for someone else to do it for me. Hint: His name starts with a “C” and ends with an “aleb”.

This past week I’ve been on Spring Break, and for the most part all I did was sleep, eat, and lie around the house.
Exceptions being:
Wednesday - Helped out at Mission Metroplex. Hooray community service! Unfortunately, all the Hispanic people kept speaking to me in Spanish and I couldn’t answer them in proper Spanish. This may, of course, be due to the fact I’m Chinese.
Thursday - Ashley C. came over, went to go see Music and Lyrics, a fire started before we could finish the movie, evacuated the building and took pictures, had dinner with Ashley C. in which we ate dumplings and caught the end of Grey’s Anatomy and the premiere of some show called October road.
Today - Actually did some homework for once.

Looking back on my last entry, I feel bad for my past self. She really liked that guy, but it was a real dead end to show up all dead ends. Fortunately, no such feelings are plaguing me today. Thank God.

A few other quick updates on my life:
1) I talked to Chethan recently
2) I’ve been accepted as a participant in the Welch Summer Scholar Program
3) I’m going to be baptized this coming Easter
4) deliriuMEDIA
5) I have texting back on my phone
6) My birthday is soon…ish.

I really need to re do the layout of this blog and make the area where the post will be a lot bigger. Seriously. I’m way too verbose and rambly for my own good.

Till next time,
LiiiUN

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Psychological inertia and the spider box

LiUn is feeling: Ambivalent, with a dash of happy

And is listening to: Welcome to the Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

…

Wow it’s been a while…

I haven’t made a post since school’s started, which makes plenty sense seeing that I’ve been completely overwhelmed by it. I’m doing somewhat better grade-wise this year than I was last year, so the hardwork and focus are somewhat paying off.

The leadership conference October 6th was real nice. Spending time with Amy (omg Amy’s angry teacher act was -pure gold-), Alexa (I love her personality! So bright and happy :D), Greg B. (I just noticed he has some really gorgeous blue eyes), Matt ( “Oh my gawd, seriously?”), and even Greg K.(He’s so freakin’ tall, he’s like a jolly, not-so-green, giant) and Jimmy (Sincere at heart, just has difficulties putting ideas into words) was really fun. I think it was a day-off well spent! Unlike the day after, in which all I did was practice popping and handstands. Which, by the way, I am now very sore from.

Oh! I have a pet now; it’s a spider. I caught it myself :D I’ve had it for a couple of weeks now, and he (or she?) has gotten quite fat. Having a pet is fun, but I don’t have too much energy to spend catching food for it now, so it might be dead in a couple of days. It doesn’t have a name, but I’m taking suggestions. I’d like to have a name for it before it dies, you know, cause that’d be cool and whatnot.

Lol e-band, anyone? *coughChinachucough*

Anyway, it’s kinda weird when you run out of things to talk about with someone you adore. My Momo told me it’s happened to him, too. This has been going on for a while now, and I don’t really see an end in sight, but I think I’ll just keep trying, regardless. Perhaps I’m finally letting go of the same little situation that’s made me so miserable for quite some time now. It’s probably better this way, seeing how starkly our views and values conflict it’s been questionable from the start in my mind that it could even get anywhere. I, personally, think it’s amazing that it did. He confuses me. Well, so does physics. But, at least physics doesn’t make me cry.

I’m thinking of making a new layout, maybe something blue or green. I haven’t touched photoshop in a loooooong time though, so no telling how it’ll turn out if I do try and attempt something.

Mmm…this 4 day weekend has been nice. I didn’t do a lot of things I should have though, so maybe I’ll start working on that bunch now.

…maybe..

Things left to do (UPDATED: 10/10/06 @ 4:55 PM):
a) Homework
- AP Bio (completed @ 1:11 AM, 10/10/06)
- Pre-Cal (completed @ 2:23 AM 10/10/06)
- AcDec
b) Practice piano for the the day (somewhat completed @ 7:10, 10/9/06)
c) Write that one history essay thing
d) Pratice PSAT/SAT stuff
e) Eat dinner (completed @ 7:25 PM, 10/9/06)

BY THE BY:
*3 Colors Infinity (NEW! kinda)
Summary: Mp3 rotation site focusing on Chinese, Japanese, and American music.
Most recent update: Oct. 2, 2006
*Eat.Sleep.Game. (ESG) (in beta phase)
Summary: A gaming news/community site.
Most recent update: Oct. 8, 2006?; still being tested and updated frequently

<3,
Li Un

{a.e. <3s you} Vince || Real Vince || Noel noel (x2) || Bart bart || Forge || Misty

EDIT (10/10/06): …My spider just shed and it’s kinda weird.. D: It -was- brown with yellow spots, but now it’s a pale blue with a dark brown abdomen. I just threw away the old skin cause it, for whatever reason, gives me the creeps when I look at it. Aw, maybe I totally jinxed my spider and now it’s dying. ): I have a couple of hypotheses, actually:
A) The spider has newly shedded and is now waiting for the new exoskeleton to harden.
- This would make sense, because I read that spiders don’t eat for a couple of days before shedding, and my spider didn’t eat the last thing I threw in there.
B) The spider is dying due to:
1. Lack of food
2. The bugs it ate earlier - This too makes sense, because I’ve fed my spider quite a few of these little bugs that happen to be red, yellow, and black, which we all know are Nature’s way of saying “Hey idiot, I’m poisonous.”
3. Dehydration…? - Well, I don’t know how to get water to a spider so… ._.
C) The spider decided to change color o_O Just because.

If my spider’s still alive by tomorrow, we’ll see.

Posted in School Year '06 - '07 | 7 comments

Every once in a while, it’s bound to happen

Li Un is feeling: Very content :D
And is listening to: Morris Brown by Outkast

Life’s being so nice to me right now, I’m beginning to get a little suspicious. I bet it wants me to pay that one debt back. ):
Today it actually rained here! It was very relaxing, soothing too. I adore the blue hues it paints on the usually bland, white walls of my room when I open the windows. I like the sounds the drops make, too :D I haven’t always liked rain this much, but I’m beginning to appreciate it more. I’m beginning to see the really refreshing side of cloudy and rainy weather, I think. Hm…I’ve always liked the idea of living in Seattle, I should consider Washington State for med school.

So I was randomly discussing with my little sister about our future and about marriage, and it made me realize that I can’t picture myself marrying a white guy. ._. Chinese? ‘Course. Indian? Why not. Hispanic? Maybe. But white? Nope. o_o Dunno why, it’s not like white guys are mean to me or anything like that, I guess I just don’t see most of ‘em as the type I’d want to settle down and have kids with. There are like, two exceptions I know, but besides them, no white guys for me. I don’t know if I want to marry someone who’s not my same race. There’s a whole new culture I’d have to get used to and language I’d have to learn to communicate well with all of his family more than likely. Though, I have always fancied the idea of having adorable mixed babies. o: Well, once I do find him, whatever race he is, I know he’ll be worth the effort. <3

“Hahahah such evil questions for this dreaded assignment. Relate this book to your own experiences’. Yeah, I’ve been stranded on a life boat with a tiger for 227 days. We all have, haven’t we? The answer I came up with is even better: While on the life boat, Pi was tired (329) . I’ve been tired too.”

- Josie

Lol, Josie jo needs to finish his summer assignment before it drives him crazy. O:
Hmm…I think tomorrow will be a nice day even though I have a test in Pre-Cal >_> Go go optimism! :D Man, I hope this cold blows over soon, it’s getting to be such a pain. x___o More so, I hope bart bart gets better! D: Poor thing, having to go to work with a cold >_< I just have school, but then again, he's starting school soon! I hope he gets better fast, cause starting off college with a cold would be so incredibly lame and he's totally anything but lame!

Mmm...everything just feels so right with the world. It's amazing, really, how much that one person can affect my -everything-, and I kinda like it.

<3
Li Un

EDIT (8/28/06, 10:51 PM): I feel deluded and hopeless. I was feeling so happy yesterday…but right before I fell asleep a couple of various doubts and familiar insecurities attached themselves to my content thoughts, draining them of any satisfaction they held in the process. I want so badly to know if I even have a chance, but I don’t think I could bear knowing if I didn’t. I don’t know how I got to liking him so much, or when. I don’t know if I want to let it go, or if I even can. Like a moth to a flame…I recognize the feelings, but they seem different this time around. Am I setting myself up for heartbreak? I wish I knew, I really do.

It just…feels different this time around…

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